Thoughts are fragile.
#19 On Being Moved 🧡
July 2025
My writing has slowed. Which is only to say that my reflecting has slowed. The daily reflections have slipped aside.
Thoughts scatter themselves, here, there, anywhere.
Sometimes only a word, sometimes a phrase, sometimes the first flicker of a thought, half-formed, half-gone. Mostly gone.
I find it difficult to take the next leap. The writing itself.
And that delays the impulse, the momentum.
I am trying to understand why. Lack of time? Lack of focus? Lack of discipline? Insecurity? A demand for reason, for form, for structure?
I sit staring at my screen, writing down thoughts I have already begun to write quite a while ago, over and over, tracing their edges. Edges that are raw and in need of attention… and patience.
[self-knowledge] Half of what lies in the heart and mind is potentiality, resides in the darkness of the unspoken and unarticulated and has not yet come into being: This hidden unspoken half of a person will supplant and subvert any present understandings we have about ourselves. - David Whyte
Thoughts are fragile. Just a month ago, I found myself encountering that fragility so deeply that even describing how I felt was difficult. I am trying to loosen the weight of the expectations I place on myself, and it always brings me back to being present, to truly being there. To inhale and exhale slowly, to let my thoughts move, drift, and settle in their own time. To allow fragility.
I am the vessel that carries these thoughts, and that vessel is still learning its own rhythm. It does not yet understand that things take time. They can. The urgency for input to become output presses in, yet the vessel — I — can take turns, can pause, can follow a slower current, a direction in mind that can eventually lead somewhere. A slower current that signals awareness and presence, sensitivity and care, and I am here for it, here for the self that is okay with thoughts dissolving mid-sentence.
They are not lost. I am sure of that.
'On Being Moved’ is a monthly series of exploring and expressing observations and thoughts - through both written and visual formats. Not sure yet of its direction, however each step forward is a step 'on being moved'. Welcome ♥